03 Apr Relentless Surrender
“…yet not my will, but yours be done.”
Luke 22:42 NIV
Writing and blogging. Blogging and writing. These words have tugged at me more times than I care to admit. I have sat behind a computer and have written words, only to press the Delete button and chide myself for thinking I could do this. Of course, that pesky 4-letter word is the reason for my not plunging in sooner: fear.
Fear of failure.
I was that student asking for extra credit assignments if my graded paper or project was anything less than an ‘A’. I was that person who planned out my life to the details. Yes, I was that person who actually thought I could calculate the when’s and how’s of life and make it work to fit into my pretty little book of planning.
You know what is coming next, right?
Another 4-letter word has rocked my world and will continue to bring surprises and challenges that I have not planned for. Well, life is why I have chosen to take this plunge. In this day and age, it is fairly easy to set up social media accounts and connect with others all across the world. I have chosen to dive in and connect for one simple reason: You.
You see, my life is not my own anymore. I have given it to the Creator of Life. Not easily done for a person who likes control. I have to relentlessly surrender on a daily basis what I believe my life should be; and embrace God’s will as I go through the twists and turns, the ups and downs of what is actually realized. And I choose to share bits of this very private life of mine so that maybe, I can shine the Light of the One whom has shown me and continues to teach me that as chaotic as life can be, His very presence in this world of mine is all I need.
My prayer and hope is that what my husband and I are learning through our surrender to Christ may encourage and strengthen others as they walk in their own journey of life.